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nebuliaSo I saw CT today.
She says I'm making progress, even though I'm as miserable as ever. She says now that I'm starting to feel my emotions I'm gonna feel like shit, but I also feel myself growing more cynical and bitter by the day. And I still feel empty, too, just more miserably so.
I still don't know if I can come out of this by myself. I still feel broken, I still feel messed up, and sometimes I'm not even sure I want to get out of it. I don't know why that is. It's just...sometimes I feel almost safe here. Which might make sense. Safe in my misery, though...Gah, I'm waaaay too emo for my liking right now.
Fuck.
nebulia out.
She says I'm making progress, even though I'm as miserable as ever. She says now that I'm starting to feel my emotions I'm gonna feel like shit, but I also feel myself growing more cynical and bitter by the day. And I still feel empty, too, just more miserably so.
I still don't know if I can come out of this by myself. I still feel broken, I still feel messed up, and sometimes I'm not even sure I want to get out of it. I don't know why that is. It's just...sometimes I feel almost safe here. Which might make sense. Safe in my misery, though...Gah, I'm waaaay too emo for my liking right now.
Fuck.
nebulia out.
