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from 5 to 9 on friday, yay!

(i'm not sure why it's a good thing. i mean, it's work.)

swimming tonight was 8 25s on the :30. Twice. And that was icky, but the 2 200 breasts were all right, and the two 300 pulls were nice, too.

quote of the post: "ablative of FUNK!" --joe.

nebulia out.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: foo tonne
Current Music: none

It's still raining! Yay! YAYAYAYAYAY!

Work today was interesting. Busy. They played snooth jazz today, which was really nice, and it wasn't too bad. I didn't make a fool of myself, to say the least.

Fun conversation of the day:

Lady: (summoning me as I finish a run) Um, the Powerade in the fountain isn't working.
Me: Oh. How so?
Lady: It's just like water.
Me: Oh, okay. I'm sorry, I'll let my manager know.
(goes over to end, summons GeneralManager)
Me: Apparently, the PowerAde isn't working.
GM: Isn't working?!
Me: Uh, yeah.
GM: What, is it not giving people energy?
Me: Uh, no, it's--hey!
GM: *laughs*

So GM, as always, made me laugh. And is a freak. But he's cool. I couldn't ask for a better GM.

Afterwards, there was HYC and a concert. The concert went as well as could be expected, I suppose, for just one retreat and one rehearsal. Then I went home, and then I go to go to dinner with Dad.

That was the best part of the evening, really. Dad and I don't get much time together, esp. now with school. It was a lot of fun, we talked about swimming and school and drama and didn't argue once.

The bad part of the night was that I slammed my left ring finger in the car door. And it's nasty, nasty enough that Maman and Dad think I'll lose my fingernail.

Dad lost the same fingernail about 25 years ago (ooh! family curse!); around the time Maman and he got married. He used to joke that when Maman put the ring on his finger, his fingernail fell off. Which is simply hysterical, knowing my parents.

But it throbs and aches. But I got this cool blue band-aid.

It also bled up the wazoo, or, like, Dad said, "like a stuck pig." Seriously. It was dripping down my finger and all that.

Anyway, so now I'm off to do homework. Later.

Yay! It's still raining! 24+ hours straight!

quote of the post: "a woman's beauty is a treasure beyone price." --balzac and the little chinese seamstress, by dai sijie (excellent book, I recommend it)

nebulia out.

Current Mood: in pain
Current Location: futon
Current Music: collide--howie day

There are those women who, when they walk in, give you these condescending smiles as they breeze by the register, and these smiles say, "Ha! I am a mature adult, whereas you are merely and ugly teenage girl with so self-esteem who has to work to get any cash, and I'll smile like this at you because I have a very kind-hearted husband who puts up with me and caters to my every need. Oh, and this smile makes you feel bad, so that's an added bonus."

Met one of these today, or at least, one who smiled at me--that tight-lipped, snobbish-like smile-- and breezed by the register to get her drink. She was followed by her very, very nice husband--one of those men who just looks kind (or pussy-whipped, however you want to think of it)--and he was. Very kind, and uber-polite. And I thought: Why did he marry her in the first place?

Unfortunately, when I ran their food out to them, the woman was incredibly kind, as nice as her husband, and, what's more, they love the deli.

Ah, me...I read into things and create drama where it doesn't exist far too often. Really, how pathetic am I that I create people's lives because I don't have one?

After that....what do you get when you put four teenagers alone in the front of a deli?

No, it's not an orgy.

But it's just as chaotic. BatBoy emptied out Delco just to piss off PE Buddy's sister when she arrived; Rapper made fun of the bitch who asked for vinegar and then told us that "no one makes sandwiches with vinegar. Omigod, I'm so pissed;" I sang along to the really bad easy listenin' songs that I somehow know, and Feb14 laughed at us and ranted in Spanish to no one in particular.

And then CoolManager walked in, and we were calm.

It really is fun to thrive on chaos.

The first three and a half hours of work were hell. then I had an hour's break. And then the last four hours and fifteen minutes were fun but mildly boring.

It doesn't, however, change the fact that my migraine did not go away, and there are still little men with hammers pouding away on the inside of my skull.

They kept saying it was going to rain yesterday. It looked crappy, but it didn't rain. Then today it was "RAIN IS UPON US!" It was fucking sunny until 5:45, when suddenly it was

WHAM! "Who turned out the lights?" dark and cloudy and then it began to rain like Hurricane Katrina in the midwest: Rain coming down in sheets; wind blowing the trees in two, and people running around like chickens with their heads cut off.

Yeah. and then I got off work. And it's dark at 8:30 like it's usually dark at 10.

w00t.

That was my day.

quote of the post: "and after you do all my work for me, then you can drive home in the rain!" --CoolManager

nebulia out.

Current Mood: really, really sleepy
Current Location: futon
Current Music: none at the moment

I work from 11 to 7 on sunday. shoot me now.

Molly and Toby are getting bigger. They've lost their little puppy-legs...they don't have that adorably awkward run any more. It's amazing how much bigger they're getting. They're still really, really cute, though.

Had a swim meet today. Went well, I guess. I didn't do so well, though FireflyPickle had her best time ever in the 500. My breast time was pretty nasty, and the idiot!coaches put me in the 400 relay as well, which meant I swam the 100 breast and then turned around and swam 100 free. Being the freak I am, I put my all into my breast, no matter what, and am consequently dead afterward. My 500 breast in the 200 medley was okay, but I won't know my slit until thursday.

And I have a cold. Dammit.

quote of the post: "we are LIKE this. WE are like this. we ARE like this." --zubaida ula, the laramie project

nebulia out.

Current Mood: drained. cold. yucky.
Current Location: futon
Current Music: aeris' theme--final fantasy VII Renunion tracks

Work was okay today. both CoolManager and OtherManager decided that I was the be the Blame of All Things Wrong at The Deli, as I am so 'angry' and 'verbal (not).' CM and I also had one of the weirdest conversations I've had at work yet:

So, we had two orders finish up at once, both ones that needed running. And CM said: Okay, you do this run and I'll take the next.

Me: *get silverware* Okay.

PEBuddy's Older sister (who was working the register and very, very bored): I'll take it.

Me: *hands her tray* Okay. *turns to CM*

CM: Wow, you sure are fast! Super speed! Vroosh! (Note: this is why CoolManager is so cool. He says "Vroosh!" aloud.)

Me: *small smile* Yep, you know me, I have godlike speed.

CM: Godlike speed? Nice.

Me *thinking*: Kenshin has godlike speed! Ha! and CM doesn't know who the hell Kenshin is or where that reference is from! Ha! But then he doesn't get it...oh, well. I won't tell him.

Me *aloud*: Of course it is. That's why I have it.

CM: True. Why have human speed when you can be godlike?

Me: Precisely.

So. I made a Kenshin crack. And no one got it except me. But CM still thought the comment was funny, so I guess it was okay. And it made me laugh, so there.

quote of the post: "mayonnaise." --sanzo, saiyuki, volume 9

nebulia out.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Location: futon
Current Music: Islamey--Mily Balakirev

Forgot to mention that I got off work a whole 47 minutes early last night. Oh, yeah. Who's cool?

quote of the post: "i've got a lovely bunch of cocunuts/ there they are all standing in a row" --monty python's flying circus

nebulia out.

Current Mood: loopy
Current Location: guest bedroom
Current Music: mission--hyde (I heart this song!)

There was a woman at work today who looked creepily like the old Witch of the Waste from Howl's Moving Castle (movie version). Talk about terrifying...*shudders*

quote of the post: "at the end of the day you're another day older..." --les msierables, the musical

Current Mood: i am sooooooo tired...
Current Location: guest bedroom
Current Music: 50 ways to leave your lover--paul simon

Talked to CoolTherapist today. It was very, very good, though I don't want to go into it too much, as it got rather personal. What with Granny's death anniversary in four days and all the other crap in my life, the stuff with mom and dad and so forth, things aren't easy, and the talk with CT didn't even cover the weird suicidal things that have been going on or the dietician issue. Next week, though. I'm not about to kill myself anytime soon anyway.

Auntie had to put down her dog today, and that was rough on all of us. When my dog, Gracie, died in March, I was a mess. But Auntie's dog was her best friend, got her through her divorce, her various moves, her sucky boyfriends...etc. And she was just dying slowly, from a nasty, icky brain tumor. So Auntie's got to be even worse than I was. But I feel really bad for Auntie, but it was time for Eshter to go. But it just adds to the depression of this time of year.

Work was...meh. It was okay. Not great, but not terrible, either. So...meh.

It's rainy out today, which I love, even though it gives a melancholy air. But it's so nice when it rains...I really prefer rainy days to sunny ones. But it never rains when I have nothing to do. Which sucks. I was pretty busy today...swim camp and work and CT and then a haircut tonight.

And I just want to be left alone with like a week where I was just left alone and had absolutely nothing to do.

Gah.

quote of the post: "the die is cast." --julius caesar

nebulia out.

Current Mood: melancholy
Current Location: guest bedroom
Current Music: streets of philadelphia--bruce springsteen

Guess who clocked out early for once?

That's right, you guessed it; me! I got out a whole 10 minutes early. What's more, I was dismissed by none other than GM, who's the one notorious for letting me out late. Look--it's 1:55 and I was supposed to be off at two, and I'm already at home! w00t!

The lunch rush today...I kept muttering in German, and NewManager kept making me laugh (by asking, "You're not stressed at all, are you?" Me: "Shut up."). Eventually, during a slight break, NM said, "Say you're having fun."

Me: "O...k...?"

NM: "No, really, say, 'I'm having fun.'

Me: "I'm having fun...?"

And, oddly enough, it helped. Seriously, though, managers are like psychiatrists. They try to worm the miost detailed andwers out of you and they want you to roleplay for them (Pretend to have fun! And then you will have fun! despite people coming at you from three and a half sides and a hell of a lot of food going through your hands!).

But ha! I was off early, for once...savor the moment...*sigh* It'll probably never happen again...

quote of the post: "oh, where is my hairbrush?" --veggietales!

nebulia out.

Current Mood: in awe (I'm out early! GASP!)
Current Location: guest bedroom
Current Music: life less ordinary--carbon leaf

I have a new favortie band. Carbon Leaf--the opener for the Goo Goo dolls a couple weeks ago. They're AMAZING! Their fics are somewhat KK too...there's a lot of stuff about resting and coming home and battle scars and they're just...fabulous. I am inpired for my

101_kisses fics. Yay!

I dyed my hair Tuesday night...a dark color that from far away is a kind of dark brown/black/red look, but up close is awfully purple/plum-y. It's temporary (duh), but I love it. It'll still be there for the con, too, so yay!

Um...work today. I worked the end; I was pissed off at all the idiots and I'd never done it when it was so busy, so I was all "ahh!" and exhausted and ended up speaking in German to one of my managers. So now I'm the quiet, timid girl who talks in German.

Seriously, though. I worked the end of the line during the lunch rush, and during the lunch rush it's a very aggressive, proactive job. In real life, I am not an aggressive person. I'm pretty quiet unless you're a friend. So, CoolManager was all, "You've got to be more aggressive!" and I was like, "Um...no."

But I've got my Carbon Leaf, so I am happy. *dreamy sigh* Their lead singer and the younger guitarist are soooooooo hot...

quote of the post: "they seek him here/ they seek him there/ those Frenchies seek him everywhere/is he in heaven/or is he in Hell?/ that demmed elusive pimpernel" --the baroness orczy's The Scarlet Pimpernel (great book and great musical!)

nebulia out.

Current Mood: content
Current Location: guest bedroom
Current Music: Raise the Roof-Carbon Leaf

Well...

the work rant of the day: the order-takers have GOT to get neater handwriting. Dammit! I can't tell the differences between their sixes and fours, their sevens and twos...it's costing me overrings, I tell you!

Never mind that it's totally hypocritical for me to be saying that, as my hadnwriting rivals doctor's handwriting...*sigh* But I am not an order-taker (yet), so there.

I saw Sideways tonight. How fun! I loved it to bits. It was hysterical. I also hung out with MBF and her little brother at the mall today. It was a lot of fun; MBF's little brother's pretty cool.

Ummm...I had some other stuff to say but it's late, I'm tired and I've forgotten it. So good night.

And I'm feeling depressed right now. I could add a lot to Dark Roses or Bleeding Heart but I'm too tired and my aunt would kill me. Good night.

quote of the post: "but let them sleepe, Lord, and me mourne a space" --John Donne's Holy Sonnet VII.

nebulia out.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Location: guest bedroom
Current Music: none

From the last post:

I work the lunch rush today as well, but only for three hours instead of five.

Make that four hours I worked today. Gah. For once, can't I clock out when I'm supposed to?

In other news, I am really getting addicted to these claim communities. And, much better news than that, I'm writing Les Mis again! Yay! I now have the Bishop from my one and only favorite book in the community

over_look, which is a place where you can write about your favorite overlooked characters, pairings, and even sometimes fandoms. So yay! Les Mis, here I come!

quote of the post: "i think i was a little bit in love with you." eponine, from the book les miserables

Current Mood: happy
Current Location: downstairs desk
Current Music: none

Well, Pretear was amazingly cute and fluffy. And Hayate is hot. I am in love.

Next on my list of things to mention: I am now writing KK stuff for the

101_kisses community here. w00t. That's a lot of themes...and I may have to get another couple as well, possibly original if they allow it--either Calix and Beast (from Dark Roses) or Carrion and Ariadne (from horrors). If they don't allow it, I'll do it on my own. I'm leaning towards Carrion and Ariadne, as I've a) written lime for them, as opposed to Calix and Beast, who have yet to kiss in any draft, and b) They have such a dark relationship...ooh! It's so much fun to write. horrors is entirely dark...I have to work to keep comedy out of it.

Next, I will rant. About Inuyasha. Actually, LCA and I will rant about Inuyahsa. We are not big IY fans. Not at all. We think it's too long, it brainwashes, etc. If you think otherwise, don't click the cut.

( Inyuasha rants... )

So that's that.

I worked yesterday...for five hours straight, which I'd never done before. Oy, tiring. But it was the lunch rush, thus, it was busy, so I wasn't really bored. I work the lunch rush today as well, but only for three hours instead of five. w00t. And due to RAGBRAI and other stuff going on this week, it's still busy, but not as busy as usual, which is kay, as the end is still pretty new to me. But I'm getting better, w00t.

Anyway. I also babysat Tuesday night, four kids (two from each family), and both moms paid me wight dollars an hour. That's 64 dollars for a night. I was happy. :D.

Anything else? Not really. My room's coming along--my bed is in the garage now, so I guess it's going somewhere, finally.

quote of the post: "follow the spiders?! why couldn't we follow the butterflies?" --rom weasley in the movie (which sucks but this line really is hysterical) harry potter and the chamber of secrets

nebulia out.

Current Mood: good fucking morning.
Current Location: desk
Current Music: none, but there's a tunderstorm. I love thunderstorms! YAY!!

Yay! Lost Cursed Angel (LCA) and I are meeting up this week! w00t! I haven't talked to LCA in a while; we've exchanged e-mails, I just haven't seen her since school.

Mom's letting me go to the con if I pay! w00t!

Ummm...what else...life is good. GM is working with me for my fall schedule (With swimming it's a tad hectic), hopefully I'll get paid soon, work is good (I'm getting the hang of it, people are sort of starting to like me, the customers think I'm funny, I haven't made a complete fool of myself yet (just a sort of fool), it's all good.), really Dad just got back from out of town, Mom's going out of town, then they're going to Banff together (I'll be free! Sort of.), and my room is almost empty (which means I can start painting! YES!).

Yeah, I'm redoing my room. I've been looking for stuff, and found some possibilities; I've got colors picked out. I'm happy. It's finally making progress, which means that I will have a new bedroom when school starts. I'm so happy. Really.

I'm not even going to think about the bad things.

quote of the post: "don't worry, be happy." --bobby mcferrin, brilliance in a set of vocal cords

nebulia out.

Current Mood: happy. plain happy, for once.
Current Location: dad's desk (on his laptop)
Current Music: cicadas

Was kept an hour and a half after I was supposed to be done for no apparent reason. Gah.

Still, I got paid. That makes it okay.

Boring day. Cleaned, onlined, took a nap, did some writing (a brief Loki cookie that is more parody than anything else and the beginning of a possible oneshot, if it ever gets past that stage), and worked. I'm exhausted anyway. Despite the nap before work (nice though it was).

quote of the post: "here's a soup for your spoon..." --me, today, during work, when i handed a guy his soup spoon and got a little confused.

nebulia out.

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Location: dad's desk (on his laptop)
Current Music: none

Work was not so bad tonight, and I got complimented on my cleaning by the General Manager (forevermore known as GM). We (as in multiple coworkers) even discussed the Apocalypse and instead of having a heart attack like I might have a year ago I just talked with them.

So I hope I've snapped out of this odd depressed funk I've lived in since Thursday night, when I had the oddest suicidal thoughts that were utterly disturbing, as I haven't been suicidal since the end of seventh grade. Four years ago. But it wasn't even like, 'I want to end it all, I want it all to go away,' it was this kind of almost light, 'Work is starting to get to me, school is going to suck, I can't clean my room...it would be so much easier if I was dead.' And the worst part was that it didn't even scare me; I just kind of registered it--'Hey, I'm feeling mildly suicidal again. How odd.'

Friday my period started and I felt half-pissed and half-empty. I wasn't hungry at all and I hardly ate Saturday or today, which is a big deal for me. But it was just weird.

That thought--the one about it being easier if I were dead--still lurks in the back of my brain, and I can't get it out. I wonder what CoolTherapist will think...I have to tell her, but I'm kinda scared to.

As my doctor said when I had my physical on Friday, therapists are generally helpful and really good for people, even those who don't have depression or OCD. CT is great, really she is. I love her. But I'm having problems with my anxiety disorder again, and with the suicidal stuff I'm afraid she'll give me medication.

I don't want medication. I really don't want to be dependent on something like that. But CT is right--what I've got is basically a chemical imbalance in my brain. There are ways to handle it without meds, and I've been doing well for a year now. But...CT--and the books and research--say sometimes you can't do it yourself, or even with supportive friends (like DrumMajor, who's amazing, because she's got problems of her own, and they're considerably worse than mine). Sometimes you need medication and you don't need it forever, but someitmes you need it.

Mom wondes about it too.

But I shouldn't worry, right? I mean, I'm feeling a lot better than I was all this weekend--today was pretty good. Last night I nearly had one of tghose damned anxiety attacks simply because I couldn't sleep and Friday I was in the middle of a mild one at work and didn't realize it b/c it was so hectic until PEBuddy said, "Calm down, it's okay. Don't look so nervous!"

I love PEBuddy. She's too cool.

But anyway, I'll just tell CT about it when I go see her, and hope it doesn't get any worse.

This year...this year is a bad time of year for me anyway, because Granny died on Aug. 12, and it'll be four years ago this year. I mean, Granny was my best friend and my idol and my rock and it was her and my writing that really drew me out of my seventh grade self-mutilating suicidal funk.

But I don't have Granny to do that now, though my writing is a much more stable part of my life than it was then. Oh, God, though, sometimes I wish she were here so badly...she was the coolest woman ever. So kind, so tough, so...funny!

And here I am, ranting about my dead grandmother. I'll save it for later.

But things are pretty good right now. I'm meeting some potential babysitting customers tomorrow and Mom and I are also going shopping for redoing my room, so I'm pretty happy.

I think I'll try going to bed. I've been having problems getting to sleep--I'm blaiming it on lack of inactivity. I feel pretty tired right now, though, so I'm going to try.

Anyway, good night, sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite--

quote of the post: "many people think they want things, but they don't really have the strength, the discipline. they are weak. i believe that you get what you want if you want it badly enough." --sophia loren

nebulia out.

Current Mood: pensive
Current Location: desk
Current Music: the Titantic soundtrack (really a fabulous soundtrack.)

I think work will kill me.
Yesterday I worked for an extra forty-five minutes because we had a late rush. I was on my feet for four and a half hours straight. And then I had to mow the lawn when I got home.

Yuck.

Then I had to work from 11 to 3 today and then from 5-8 tonight. I got off a little early tonight, but the lunch rush (my first) was uber-busy for a lunch rush, so my manager said, and I was 9.16 short. She was good with it, though, which was nice.
But still, I worked for an extra half hour today too. Then tonight I got off about five minutes early, which was all right, because I was exhausted. I don't know how I'm going to deal with an eight hour day when I grow up.

This is why I don't want an office job. And why I'm going to go to college. And not work in food service all my life.

*dies*

quote of the post: "one man's trash is another man's treasure." --anonymous

nebulia out:

Current Mood: it's that time of month. die.
Current Location: desk
Current Music: metal heart--garbage

I am sooooo tired right now. *dies*

Good news: I had a perfect drawer tonight! Yay!
More good news: I got my first paycheck! $70.63. Yay!
More good news: the Goo Goo Dolls concert's in a week! Yay!
More good news: I got a new icon (from my favorite webcomic, Fallen). Isn't it pretty?
More good news: Fallen was UPDATED! Yay!
More good news: I don't work tomorrow! Yay!
More good news: Saw The Brothers Grimm and now have another OneTrueThreesome!Pairing. Yay!

Bad news: I'm dead tired.
Bad news: My work apron is dirty. I don't know why it's bad news, that's just what it feels like.
More bad news: Dark Roses is at a standstill.
More bad news: Almost all inspiration is gone, actually. I want to write smut but I don't have the energy or the caffeine, or the context. And PWPs and I don't get along.
More bad news: my wisdom teeth still hurt like hell. Not as bad as they did, ut still pretty damn bad. Shit.
More bad news: The earth is turning.

Ta-da. My life.

quote of the post: "The trouble with trouble is it starts out as fun." --Naomi Judd

Current Mood: you know what? fuck off.
Current Location: desk hell
Current Music: happy--saving jane

Came out even today at work...wasn't 6 cents short like usual.

YES!

I was startled that I was so happy about it. I guess I'm just kinda numb right now, and everything little is good.

Why am I numb, you ask? (Or you don't ask, but I'll tell you anyway...)

I get my wisdom teeth--all four--out tomorrow. They're putting me under entirely, and, frankly I'm terrified.

Ah, well. *sigh* I'll go to sleep, and then I'll wake up and be knocked out, and then survive on ice cream and milkshakes. w00t.

Just saw the Devil Wears Prada...very, very good. Meryl Streep was amazing; Anne Hathaway was excellent (her boyfriend was really, really cute!). Anyway, it was good. Recommended...I've seen a lot of good movies recently. We'll probably see POTC 2 on Sunday, as well. Yay!

Anyway, I'm going to bed. The next time I write will be tomorrow night at the earliest. Wish me luck!

quote of the post: "life should be a little nuts. otherwise, it's a bunch of thursdays strung together." --beaux burroughs, from the movie rumor has it

nebulia out.

Current Mood: abso-fucking-lutely terrified
Current Location: desk
Current Music: the ceiling fan.

First: Last night I saw the Lake house and Over the Hedge. Both excellent and highly recommended.

Second: Was working tonight and one of the best-looking boys I'd seen in a while came in. Curly brown hair, taller than me, kinda thin but not TOO thin, with a great voice and a great smile. It was lust at first sight for me. He wasn't like drop-dead gorgeous, way-out-in-the-open hot, jut really, really handsome. Ooh! He was pretty...

Third: I'm going to the forced family fun reunion. Pray for me. I'll see you all tomorrow if I'm lucky and can stop at home after work, and Monday after that. But gah! And gah!

And he was SO cute. I'm not even boy-crazy and he was cute.

quote of the post: "gah!" --universal sign of mild distress and severe gah-ness

nebulia out.

Current Mood: goin' to forced family fun...
Current Location: desk
Current Music: none

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