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"Don't be such a worrywart," they say...
No one is happy right now.
There is LCA/HLBF drama, of which I still know nothing (DAMN YOU, HLBF! Why did you have to tell me about that? Did you honestly think that I wasn't going to worry, you dolt?). There is Bang!YouAreDead/LCA drama, and Naru is kind of mediating between the three of them.
And then B!YAD has been sad anyway...but she and CBLL and I went to Phantom last night and had tons of fun. But today the CWII teacher--who, don't get me wrong, I love her--was being bitchy about something trivial--she can be so tough sometimes--was harsh and B!YAD wasn't having a good day to begin with, and now I feel really bad.
I worry, you know.
And so my mood swings are in full gear and my nerves are on edge and I'm just on the border of anxiety attack, all shaky and crap, and the shakiness is only made worse by the fact that a) it is fucking cold in my room, and b) I went to bed at 11:30 last night and woke up at 4:30, no alarm clock.
I hate insomnia. Yeah, it wasn't as bad as it has been, but it still pisses me off.
So I'm worried and I'm tired and the only good thing is that tomorrow instead of CWII we get to Borders, and I think I'm taking B!YAD. And Twin might join us too, yay.
But that's, of course, if I only get through the night.
Damn. It is sooo cold in this room.
So. CBLL and B!YAD and I blasted J-pop all the way down to the Civic Center and back before and after the show, and then we also went to Starbucks after the show, and we added quite a bit to the quote book and laughed tons. So it was a blast.
But still. Monday just takes all the good out of you. Especially a Monday like this one, spent worrying about everyone. But then, no one seems to worry about themselves, so that's my job, right? 'Cause MBF and CT worry about me, and then I can spend more time worrying about everyone else.
CT will tell me that's faulty logic, but right now I don't care. I'm just fucking freaked out, and I'm not sure why.
I want everything to be the way it was this fall. Or last year, at the end of the year, when everyone was friends, nothing more, nothing less.
why do people fall in love?
quote of the post: "it's a good thing tears never show/ in the pouring rain/ like a good thing ever/ could make up for the pain" --robyn
nebulia out.
There is LCA/HLBF drama, of which I still know nothing (DAMN YOU, HLBF! Why did you have to tell me about that? Did you honestly think that I wasn't going to worry, you dolt?). There is Bang!YouAreDead/LCA drama, and Naru is kind of mediating between the three of them.
And then B!YAD has been sad anyway...but she and CBLL and I went to Phantom last night and had tons of fun. But today the CWII teacher--who, don't get me wrong, I love her--was being bitchy about something trivial--she can be so tough sometimes--was harsh and B!YAD wasn't having a good day to begin with, and now I feel really bad.
I worry, you know.
And so my mood swings are in full gear and my nerves are on edge and I'm just on the border of anxiety attack, all shaky and crap, and the shakiness is only made worse by the fact that a) it is fucking cold in my room, and b) I went to bed at 11:30 last night and woke up at 4:30, no alarm clock.
I hate insomnia. Yeah, it wasn't as bad as it has been, but it still pisses me off.
So I'm worried and I'm tired and the only good thing is that tomorrow instead of CWII we get to Borders, and I think I'm taking B!YAD. And Twin might join us too, yay.
But that's, of course, if I only get through the night.
Damn. It is sooo cold in this room.
So. CBLL and B!YAD and I blasted J-pop all the way down to the Civic Center and back before and after the show, and then we also went to Starbucks after the show, and we added quite a bit to the quote book and laughed tons. So it was a blast.
But still. Monday just takes all the good out of you. Especially a Monday like this one, spent worrying about everyone. But then, no one seems to worry about themselves, so that's my job, right? 'Cause MBF and CT worry about me, and then I can spend more time worrying about everyone else.
CT will tell me that's faulty logic, but right now I don't care. I'm just fucking freaked out, and I'm not sure why.
I want everything to be the way it was this fall. Or last year, at the end of the year, when everyone was friends, nothing more, nothing less.
why do people fall in love?
quote of the post: "it's a good thing tears never show/ in the pouring rain/ like a good thing ever/ could make up for the pain" --robyn
nebulia out.