nebulia: a nebula (heihachi-samurai 7)
Changed my layout a couple days ago. We have moved from MirrorMask to Delacroix and Hugo. xD It's also, IMO, easier to read. And easier to decipher my flist to boot. xD

Um. Not much going on. I've been really lonely and down recently, and then realized that I've been forgetting to take my meds. So hopefully remembering those will help me feel a bit better. Gymnast is coming over tonight too, so that will be fun. I can't wait until she gets here.

was thinking about that, actually, my names for my friends. MBF and HLBF (MormonBestFriend and HorseLoverBestFriend), haven't changed, thank God. But DrumMajor is no longer a drum major and Gymnast no longer a gymnast. gothsocks changed her name so many times that I just eventually stopped, because it was confusing. xD And then I realized I haven't really talked of my friends a lot recently. I blame Costa Rica, I was kind of out of the picture.


Today, at 8:30 this morning, the Iowa Supreme Court unanimously voted to


I'm SO HAPPY!!! Guys, it's awesome! It goes into effect in 3 weeks and IA will be only the fourth state in the country to do it, after Massachusetts and California (and they struck it down fuck you prop 8) and Connecticut, and it's IOWA. MY state! I'm so happy!!!!! My little, hickish, 3 million people, farming, mixed-up-with-Idaho-and-Ohio-all-the-time state. WE DID IT!!!! :DDDDDD

If there's any external event that could pull me from depression, for at least a while, this is it. There are not words for how happy I am. :D

This is the most wonderful thing ever.


Dec. 25th, 2008 12:30 pm
nebulia: a nebula (Default)
First of all:

Merry Christmas! Happy fifth day of Hanukkah! I hope your holiday was a good one. :)


THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU [ profile] noel_venus915!! I was so happy when I got home to get your card! I can't thank you enough. :D


My internet connection is acting up and we're moving, so I'm a bit behind. I'm trying to keep up with my flist but I'm not doing too well. Anyway, hope you're all doing well, and I hope to talk to you soon! :D
nebulia: a nebula (the scared guy)
Agh, stress.

I should be at home right now, but actually I'm in a hotel at Houston, because my plane was delayed an hour and a half and then we spent almost 3 hours on the tarmac. We left San Jose at around the same time we were supposed to get into Houston. So I missed my flight to Des Moines.


But I'm going to bed, and I talked to everybody--god, it was so good to hear their voices. :) I may voice post tomorrow just because I can because I can use my cell phone again. XD

I'm tired. Bedtime. XD

I'm almost home!
nebulia: a nebula (sod off-fallen the webcomic)
I had these plans. They're starting Supernatural season 4 here tomorrow at 8, subbed in espanol. So, I was going to take my test Friday morning, relax/internet/watch season three in the afternoon, and go to the final symphony concert in the evening.

That all went brilliantly. The concert was fantasic; the national orchestra is as exceptional as the Ticos claim it is. They have every right to be proud of it. Also, I got to see a piece writted for the OSN in its debut last night, which was really cool. I was part of the first audience ever hearing that piece, and I really liked it. It had a lot of aspects of modern classical music, but I love modern classical music just as much as the good old stuff, and it was really good.

So, then, on Saturday, I was going to go to Volcan Irazu, and then relax/watch more Supernatural. And on Sunday I was going to go to Volcan Poas and get back in time to shower, eat dinner, and then actually watch Supernatural on TV. For once. XD

But whatever. Today.

So I get down to downtown San Jose at 7:45 to catch the 8 o'clock bus (the bus comes back from Irazu at 12:30). That all goes brilliantly, and I meet this girl who just graduated from UKansas in Manhattan (Kansas). She's with her boyfriend, and they're in CR for two weeks because her boyfriends from Mexico and they've been doing the long distance thing. That was cool.

Anyway, so it's an hour and 45 minutes or so to Irazu, and by the time we get to the gates it's rainy and windy and (when we get outside) probably around 40-some degrees, maybe less with wind chill.

Whatever. I'd totally hike anyway.

The problem is that there was a rockslide in the park. A ROCKSLIDE. So the park is closed today and tomorrow, and for good reason: not only is it dangerous, but none of the frickin' place has power or water or anything.

So we turned around and went back to San Jose.

On the way home I talked to a guy from Taiwan (though he lives in Florida now), who's here for a week. He was pretty cool. It was nice to talk to him. He'd been to a lot of countries in Latin America, and it was cool to hear about that. Apparently, the traffic in Brazil is even crazier than it is here in San Jose. I'm not even sure how that's possible. XD

So I went and got white grape juice and cookies from the automercado, and I guess I'm gonna start the supernatural marathon early. I think I'll try Irazu next weekend, and go with Susan, because she wants to see a bunch of the volcanoes.

Whatever. As soon as I go home (since I'm at UVeritas right now because I don't have internet), I'm changing into my pajama pants and dry socks and curling up in bed.

It's cold. And rainy. I love it, but I really wish I was in Irazu. D:


Nov. 18th, 2008 04:59 pm
nebulia: a nebula (sod off-fallen the webcomic)
hmm. What's going on.

It's cold here! Which is weird! But I'm outside in a sweatshirt and my feet are FREEZING (because I'm wearing flip-flops) but it's cold!

I don't have internet at home...the router's screwed up, dunno why. I may not have internet at home for the next month (oh my!). Ummm...hmmm.

So. I gave up on the nanowrimo thing because when my computer crashed it ate it all. I'm contemplating having a NeNoWri10 (nebulia novel writing 10 days) and just totally ruining my life and destroying what little sanity I might possess by writing 50K words in 10 days.

Let's see if we can get back on our feet, hmm.

hahahahahahahano. It's not gonna happen. But I'm gonna give it a shot. I'll plot until nov. 20, and then it's off to the races. When I start babbling like a maniac, you might want to give my mom a call, k? XD

So it's cold here, and I don't have internet and I'm homesick. I'm happy about the cold though. I'm also sad because my spanish class for this month finishes on Friday and I really like my teacher. Que lastima. D:

Also, my new favorite thing about Costa Rica:

Age at which you can marry: 15
Age at which you can have consensual heterosexual sex: 18

…wait, what?



Oh, wait! Here:

You're The Guns of August!

by Barbara Tuchman

Though you're interested in war, what you really want to know is what
causes war. You're out to expose imperialism, militarism, and nationalism for what they
really are. Nevertheless, you're always living in the past and have a hard time dealing
with what's going on today. You're also far more focused on Europe than anywhere else in
the world. A fitting motto for you might be "Guns do kill, but so can

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Obviously, they didn't have Les Mis among their choices, because...really. :D

haha, no. But seriously, it's pretty accurate. If I were to be more politically active than I am. XP
nebulia: a nebula (sod off-fallen the webcomic)
Minerva. My car, my baby, my mode of transportation, my beloved.


Issue #1: The car is not delivering charge to the battery. Possibly the alternator belt isn't working, but we're not sure.

Issue #2, and much odder: even after we put her in neutral, she did not budge. Even with Dad--275 lbs, 95% of that muscle--and me--who while not 95% muscle is still very strong (I'm not saying how much I weigh, though...*blush*)--pushing, it didn't move. Like the parking brake was on. We put it in neutral five times, in five different ways, and then repeated it all, and it didn't go to neutral.

So now she is sitting on the edge of a Kum&Go (Ejaculate & Evacuate) parking lot, and I'm terrified some sod who's not paying attention will just WHAM! into her, as I couldn't coast far enough to get her into a parking spot.

I am bemoaning my miserable existence.


Oh no.

Dec. 14th, 2007 07:33 am
nebulia: a nebula (fade to dust-angel sanctuary)
Terry Pratchett was just diagnosed with a rare form of early-onset Alzheimer's.


He's only 59.

nebulia out.


Nov. 19th, 2007 11:49 pm
nebulia: a nebula (sod off-fallen the webcomic)
added about 400 words to NaNoWriMo ust now. I'm still horrendously behind--15K and a little more, but I'm going to catch up over Thanksgiving.

Speaking of that, my article came out on Saturday in Imagine! And it was amazing! I'm so happy with how it turned out--it's AWESOME!

*dies from joy*

My back has been killing me for the past couple of days. I think I'm sleeping funny, not to mention I'm not getting enough sleep and stressing myself out, and then my period started this morning, so backaches galore, and homework is raping me, and college apps, and aaaahhhhhhhg

going to bed now. before I die from crazy.

nebulia out.


Oct. 14th, 2007 06:11 pm
nebulia: (girl from cirque du soleil's O)
this cough is nasty. It's entirely unproductive--there's nothing to cough up, really--but it's constant and painful.

I'm getting really tired of this--this is the third time in a year I've gone to a doctor for a really bad cough. It's disgusting.


nebulia out.
nebulia: a nebula (take you home-gokusen)
This Is My Life, Rated
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Gacked from [ profile] whiteadelphi.

Got 13 hours of sleept last night. Still not feeling well.

I am kinda hungry, though.

nebulia out.
nebulia: a nebula (sod off)
I actually have a fever. This is the first time I've had a true, honest-to-God fever since ninth grade, when I was God-awful sick during first-semester finals week. My natural temp's about 96 F, and I had a 101 degree fever. It was gross.

Today it was about 99.5, so it was still high. Add wooziness, achiness, soreness from Tuesday's swim practice, a sore, throat, a cough, a runny nose, and general misery and you get me.

I slept from 10:30--when I got home from school--to 3:30. And then from 6:30 to 8:15. And now I'm doing my homework.

Grah. I feel gross.

nebulia out.


May. 31st, 2007 01:08 am
nebulia: a nebula (sod off)
Spent the last four hours working on the AP Euro project. It's now one in the morning. I am very close to finishing it...just two more paragraphs and the bibliography, but God...I wish I wasn't such a procrastinator. I still have a Latin essay to write for tomorrow too.


Actually, I have been doing reading and stuff for AP Euro since this weekend...but I just got started on the essay and the powerpoint tonight. I'm pretty proud of it, actually; I feel like I know a lot on this subject and it's not one we've really covered in class, so...yay!

Subject: Education and Literature in the Early Middle Ages. It's really interesting, actually. I might go into it in college.

but the Latin essay...agh.

nebulia out.

True that.

Apr. 15th, 2007 10:14 pm
nebulia: a nebula (sod off)
You Are 56% Cynical

Yes, you are cynical, but more than anything, you're a realist.
You see what's screwed up in the world, but you also take time to remember what's right.

I'd agree with that.

Your Linguistic Profile:
55% General American English
25% Yankee
10% Dixie
5% Upper Midwestern
0% Midwestern


Love the fact that I am midwestern. I've been told that I talk oddly though; I've been asked before if I'm from another country and moved here as a little kid, and, more recently, if I'm from Minnesota. I have Minnesotan 'o's most of the time.

Your Geek Profile:

Academic Geekiness: High
Fashion Geekiness: High
Movie Geekiness: High
SciFi Geekiness: High
General Geekiness: Moderate
Music Geekiness: Moderate
Gamer Geekiness: Low
Geekiness in Love: Low
Internet Geekiness: Low

*proud smile*

Yeah. I'm sick right now. I've got another migraine (third this week after months of none), I've got a sore throat, I feel like I've been run over by qa truch, and I'm on period.


nebulia out.
nebulia: a nebula (sod off)
I have the worst migraine I've ever had in my life right now.

I kind of want to jump off a bridge.

nebulia out.


Apr. 6th, 2007 04:39 am
nebulia: a nebula (such great heights)
You Are 89% Tortured Genius

You totally fit the profile of a tortured genius. You're uniquely brilliant - and completely misunderstood.
Not like you really want anyone to understand you anyway. You're pretty happy being an island.


In other news, looks like I'm going on an antidepressant soon. I'll find out more about that later.

Also in other news, I'm really, really tired. Tonight, as soon as the good friday service is over, I'm going to bed.

It SNOWED on Wednesday. It's been cold ever since.

Not sure if I like it or not.

nebulia out.
nebulia: a nebula (sod off)
So. In ninth and tenth grade, in HYC, there was a guy in choir who was a good friend of mine, and within the first two months of choir, I had a serious crush on him (he was eventually nicknamed by me and MBF as My Lovely Black, which is what I'll call him here). I totally thought I was over it, however, by July on tour, when my friend Alley and I turned around on the Disneyland train to find him and DrumMajor totally making out, and I wasn't really jealous. We maintained a good relationship--we were a group of friends--until he left choir at the end of last year, and I hadn't seen him since.

Until today, when he showed up for practice and I totally realized I'm still not over him. On the plus side, there's a total chance he could come back to choir next year, which means I can be better friends (or maybe more) with him. On the other hand...I've like him for a really, really long time and nothing's happened and I just want to get on with my life. But he's kind of what I'm looking for in a guy--he's WAY taller than me, kinda cute, friendly, funny, a good singer, smart (we can have both crack!conversations and serious ones), gives killer backrubs, and all that stuff. I mean, he's got his own faults, but still.

It bothers me that I still like him.


But I'm glad to see him anyway. He's also a good friend, and it's always good to see good friends.

In other news, I added four new cuts last night. I'm hiding them better, but still I just want to frickin' slap myself whenever I think about what I did. Grr.

nebulia out.


Mar. 28th, 2007 06:41 pm
nebulia: (girl from cirque du soleil's O)
So I saw CT today.

She says I'm making progress, even though I'm as miserable as ever. She says now that I'm starting to feel my emotions I'm gonna feel like shit, but I also feel myself growing more cynical and bitter by the day. And I still feel empty, too, just more miserably so.

I still don't know if I can come out of this by myself. I still feel broken, I still feel messed up, and sometimes I'm not even sure I want to get out of it. I don't know why that is. It's just...sometimes I feel almost safe here. Which might make sense. Safe in my misery, though...Gah, I'm waaaay too emo for my liking right now.


nebulia out.
nebulia: (girl from cirque du soleil's O)
Well, I've been on vacation and then I spent today hanging out with gothsocks. Yippee!

It was a lot of fun, both of them, actually. I did have a GREAT time skiing, though Dad brought me to tears more than once, and my parentals and I aren't getting along all too well, of course.

Every time I go to Colorado, I fall more and more in love with it. I'm gonna live there with I show up, for sure.

I'm still finding myself as depressed as I come. I'm not sure...I'm not sure I can do this without meds. I haven't cut, but that gave me a little bit of push to stay super-cheerful. Without that, I'm feeling kind of...empty.

Yeah. I don't want meds, but I'm thinking I might need them.


so that's what's up. Laterz.

nebulia out.
nebulia: a nebula (yosh)
Have finally gotten started on my ELP project...a literary magazine for school.

Funfun. I feel accomplished, though.

This is good. I also didn't cut today, which is also good. And I'm babysitting, so that's all right too. So I feel pretty damn good.

nebulia out.
nebulia: a nebula (eyes)
four cuts on my right shin
three on my left arm
an accidental papercut on my left index finger
one just next to my left thumb
that eraser burn
one just below my right elbow
one on the top of my right wrist.

I'm a mess. None of them are that big...they're just...there.

On the other hand, it's absolutely beautiful outside. Dad and I went for a walk on the greenbelt, and then we went around the block. It was icy and stuff earlier, but now it's changed to beautiful, dense snow that muffles sound and is so purely white that it makes me want to sob. Not only that, but it's still damp enough to almost tinkle like chimes when it falls. It's silent and clear out. A night to sled or something.

...but I didn't go sledding. Or make a snowman. I did throw a snowball at Dad, though.

nebulia out.

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