nebulia: (fma--ed episode 51)
Everyone:

I wish you the happiest of Christmases, Solstices, Hanukkahs, Kwanzaas, other holidays, general holidays, or Sundays. For those of you who are alone or sad this season, I wish you could come to my house where my family would cook you massive amounts of food and you could sit in front of a warm fireplace. You are all in my thoughts.

Thoughts on moving to dreamwidth will be posted after Christmas, because I'm not dealing with it here or now. D:

Merry Christmas!
nebulia: (fma--ed episode 51)
Everyone:

I wish you the happiest of Christmases, Solstices, Hanukkahs, Kwanzaas, other holidays, general holidays, or Sundays. For those of you who are alone or sad this season, I wish you could come to my house where my family would cook you massive amounts of food and you could sit in front of a warm fireplace. You are all in my thoughts.

Thoughts on moving to dreamwidth will be posted after Christmas, because I'm not dealing with it here or now. D:

Merry Christmas!

Oh.

Oct. 8th, 2007 09:38 pm
nebulia: a nebula (fade to dust-angel sanctuary)
Just found out that we won't have Christmas at home.

No, we're having it at HypochondriacAunt's house.

Wonderful. Now I get to be made fun of all Christmas, don't get to say anything other than please or thank you, get the last shower, and get to clean up everyone's dishes.

I'm the furniture of the family. The really comfy chair everyone likes, but it's a Godawful color apparently, so everyone makes fun of it too. If it suddenly exploded or something, they would be sad, really sad, but they would et over it relatively quickly.

That's me.

To make it worse, because I'm an only child, I don't get to complain. Even if it's a legitimate reason to protest something ("sorry, I've got a migraine the size of Mt. Everest," "sorry, I've got a fever of 102," "sorry, my best friend just got randomly dumped by her long-term boyfriend and really needs me right now"), I'm whining. I mean, my family situation isn't horrible, it could be a lot worse, but I'm in a sucky position regardless.

So there's that.

There's also the fact--and this more than anything--that I love Christmas. It is my favorite holiday by a huge margin. I love Christmas decorations. I love Christmas music. I love the whole aura of Christmas. And I especially, more than any other day of the year, love Christmas Eve.

I love the church service. I think, even if I totally gave up on all religion whatsoever, I would still go to the 11 o'clock/midnight candlelight service at a nearby church every Christmas Eve. I don't know about other denominations, but the Christmas Eve service for Lutherans is a lot of music, a brief sermon, and it culminates in all the lights being out, candles being lit, and everyone singing Silent Night.

Even better, at my church, we have a bell, and the service ends at midnight and someone will ring the bell, and it's Christmas.

I love Christmas. A lot. I love spending Christmas Eve (before church and after--we usually stay up until 2 or 3 in the morning, all 3 of us) with my parents, sitting on the couch, enjoying the lights and usually eggnog. Sometimes, if it's snowing, we go for a walk or something, or we watch Rudolph the Red-nosed reindeer, but I love sitting in the family room with only the Christmas lights on enjoying Christmas.


I love avoiding TBS' 24-hour marathon of "A Christmas Story." I've never seen that movie, other than the lamp scene and a scene where a geeky kid beats another boy up, and I don't plan on doing it.

I love reading all the little Christmas storybooks that Maman puts out only during Christmas. I've spent my entire life reading them over and over again, and I never get tired of them.

I love the feeling of going to bed in my bed on Christmas Eve--even though I haven't believed in Santa for well over ten years, I still get this tingly feeling every time I go to bed, like something good happens during the night. I still follow NOAAD's Santa-tracking satellite thing that they do Christmas Eve, so little kids can track where Santa "is" throughout the night, because it amuses me, and it's just so thoughtful that someone does this for little kids (I don't think about how they're lying to them, because I loved Santa Claus, but I wasn't particularly heartbroken when I discovered he wasn't real).

When Christmas comes around, I become a huge romantic.

And I don't get Christmas at home.

It's a little thing, but it's such a huge deal to me. I'm a pretty flexible person...I like my birthday, I like having a day to celebrate myself, and I'll ask it off from work or whatever, but I'm not going to go out of my way to make sure my birthday is a clear day just for me. Halloween is fun, but if I have other plans...I have other plans. Easter is okay. I like the Good Friday service but whatever. Fourth of July it's nice to see fireworks, but I don't have to celebrate. Christmas, to me, though, is just the holiday you spend at home, cuddling on your couch, doing nothing.

And it really makes me sad that I can't do that.

Not to mention that today I caught Dad in a lie and it really, really hurt me. This is aleady and uberlong post and it's kind of a pointless story, but suffice to say, I hate when people lie to me and I was totally heartbroken. And then he tried to cover things up, and I felt worse, and so I'm already emotional. Everything's making me tear up. We've solved things, but now I just feel bad.

nebulia out.

March 2012

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